trust

trust. it's a funny word, isn't it? that... faith that we either have or lack in other people, the willingness to make the gamble that someone is safe to give information to. trust has probably been... the most important thing in my life. who can i trust? what happens if that trust is broken? am i trusting someone more than they trust me? how hard is it to heal from having your trust broken?

i wish i trusted my friends more. i wish they trusted me more. i wish that i had never had my trust broken so many times. i don't really like talking about this, not because it's bad, but it's just... uncomfortable.

in any case, if you're here, i probably trust you. at least, to some degree. if i haven't told you something important, i'm sorry. i'm still learning how to trust people (it's a work in progress)."

maybe i'm exaggerating the things that happened three years ago, or maybe i'm not describing them well enough.

but... it doesn't really matter what happened. all that matters is how it affected me.

so if you get the chance... ask me about it, okay?"

"yours truly and truly yours..."

"nicky."

p.s.: i know this is unusual for this route, but... i needed to say this.

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