premonition

when did i realize i was trans? well, it started a long time ago. back when i was about five, i knew that i wanted to be a girl. it was... strange, to me, but i guess i thought that everyone else felt the same way. in hindsight, that doesn't really make any sense. when i was a kid, people would always say "oh you're such a handsome young man", and it would make me want to crawl out of my skin. i couldn't describe it back then. people called me a "boy", and i would just ask them not to. i couldn't explain it. yeah, i probably should've realized something was up earlier.